I don't know where to begin... well for starters about two weeks ago I did my usual rollerblading with Mary on the Bronx River Parkway. That was fun for me as usual and not fun for Mary as usual. But she's such a trooper! She comes with me even though she LOATHES it! Kudos for Mary! It sucks that today is raining as it is the last Sunday the BRP will be closed for the season. I mourn.
That day we saw a sign for an open house and Mary was intrigued and I'm easily influenced so we decided to go. I missed the turn, pulled into a church parking lot to turn around. I saw a group of people with shirts that read "Yonkers Bike Club". I was sooooo intrigued. Mary was soooo happy too! Why? Well because if I join a club that meets on Sunday's then Mary doesn't have to blade with me anymore. Get it? Good. Of course, she encouraged me to go speak to them. She even offered to speak to them for me. I parked and we both went. 2 minutes later I was part of a club. I was very excited! Long story short - I'm not part of a bike club. The president did not answer my last two emails and I have no other way of contacting them to find out where they meet. Excitement gone.
To continue on that day, we then moved on to our open house dressed like two hobos... well, like two sweaty ladies that just finished blading - not a good first impression. The realtor pretty much patronized us the entire time (at least that's how I felt) but either way it was cool walking through the home that had a heated indoor pool and beautiful green house! It also had a powered chair for stairs from the garage to the first floor - how cool is that?! Lazy people of America unite! The home was owned by an elderly couple as evidenced by the powered chair for stairs, lots of floral wall paper throughout and 70s style linoleum floors (me thinks). BUT did I mention it had a super cool INDOOR heated lap pool and a beautiful green house?!!!
Moving on... later that week I had to go to a homeless shelter as part of my clinical rotation for psych. TOTALLY uneventful day but I did get an offer.
As I sat and ate my sliced red bell peppers and carrots with hummus one of the workers stared at me wide-eyed and said, "Is THAT all you're eating? What is that?!" referring to the hummus.
So I told him and he then exclaimed, "Where is the MEAT?!" So I said, "Well, I do not need meat with this meal as the hummus is my source of protein." I sounded as lame as ever.
He then continued on to, "Aye yai yai, no, no, you want me to buy you some lunch? I mean, look you have no meat there! I can get you something. Some meat. You need meat!" with a very concerned look on his face.
This dude was serious. Did I also mention that he was overweight and apparently loves meat?
I said, "That's really kind of you but really I'm okay. It's a healthy meal and I eat every three hours. This is perfectly proportioned for now." Sounded really lame again.
He didn't look convinced. He then went on to say, very, very kindly and very concerned, "You know you're a student and you can get help. You can get food stamps. We have the application here. Don't be ashamed. It's okay. I can help you fill it out if you want or you can come back whenever and I'll help you. You can get up to $200 a month as an unemployed student."
I thought about it for a second thinking, WOW, $200 for food! That would be GREAT! I mean, I spend $400 a month on average as a single, unemployed person. WOW, $200!! So I responded not wanting to offend his generous offer, "That sounds like a really great idea. Let me think about it. I'm definitely not embarrassed. That sounds really helpful. I'll get back to you on that."
He said not convinced that I was taking him seriously, "Okay, don't be embarrassed. We all need help sometimes. You can come back another day and we can do it."
So yea, this was our conversation in front of my professor, 4 other workers there and some of their clients. Private? I think not! So as intriguing and tempting as that offer sounded, I would not have accepted for a few reasons:
- I have been eating healthier this year than my whole life. My body feels great, I have more energy (b/c this is what I need) and it helps my mood, so getting food stamps to afford meat isn't my top priority.
- I have never accepted help from anyone and have always taken care of myself, which leads to...
- Feeling embarrassed at the idea of admitting I could potentially use help.
That was the most exciting part of that experience.
The following week I started working again with the girls. These girls are great! Their parents are doing a wonderful job. They are beautiful, smart, funny and fun to be around. I had not seen them all summer. I knew this would happen.... but it was confirmed when I saw them last week. The 11 year old had grown taller than me over the summer. I mean I'm pretty tall, so this just makes her a giant!
Then something great happened! MUSE & U2! They were both so electrifying, energetic, and great entertainers! I WANT TO BE A ROCK STAR! I WANT TO BE A ROCK STAR! I
WANT TO BE A ROCK STAR!